Si bodoh di penghujung bumi.

Today I wondered something.

What would you do, if the world comes to an end at this very moment?

Would you pray?

Would you apologize to the world for all your sins?

Would you just shout it out loud saying "JESUS, HERE AM I YOUR SON!"


well, Jesus might just throw a middle finger to you. (I repent)

The thing is.


Have you ever wonder this plausibility that the world would end at this very day?


Well, I don't believe so, unless you are dead damn religious la.

Christianic, Islamic, or Buddhic.


Well, you might just call me a racist now, cause I didn't say "Hinduic"

Sorry, I missed that out.


So, lets say. The world is ending today.


Would you just face the sky and pray according to your own religion?

I believe many would do that though.


Or would you just start robbing every stores to fulfill your satisfaction?

Armani, or maybe Sony Style.



Well, those would do.


Or would you just, sit down and think rationally for a solution, though there's none?


Or would you just, go to sleep and say "this is all just a dream"


At this very moment, the person I would most respect is the IDIOT.


Yes, the bodoh one.


He would just act as though as everything is normal, going for a jog, buying a newspaper, and read it the whole day though he does not understand a single word on it.


That's why, the society always looks down upon, er.. these BODOH people. but when it comes to time like this. I can guarantee you. the Bodoh guy, is the prince of peace.

Well, the true hero.


That's what I think.


Therefore the sage rules.

By emptying their hearts
And filling their bellies,
Weakening their intelligence
And toughening their sinews
ever striving to make the people knowledge-less and desire-less (Lao Tzu, 300BC)

See, i cited using the APA format.

So don't accuse me for plagiarism.


Well, it is true that what Lao Tzu say is "damn true weh!". Like what Nadrah exclaimed when she first read the Tao Te Ching.

Anyway, its betul.


Kalau kamu bodoh, tak semestinya kamu tak berguna.


Semua orang ada gunanya kat dunia ni.


I sumpah..


Walaupun percakapan aku macam 'gay' sekarang.

Yes yes, I perasan.


Sounds like.. all those er.. how do you say.. "COME ON LETS BE FWENDS" kind of crap.


But actually. I have nothing much to write lately.

Well, my inspiration has gone somewhere.


So that's it la.


Write something.


Well, you never hear a quote from a famous philosopher before? "the writings are living"


I lied X_X


I made it myself.

aku masih fresh.

Hashim.. @ zouk.


2am 28/7/2009

Hashim: Yo Rey! sup~!

Rey: sup. siapa ni?


Hashim :relak la.. sal tension... masuk je dah cam ni. Ni member ku, Aisha. Aisha meet Rey.

Rey: sup.

*Aisha just kissed my cheek.


I was like.. "wat the fuck.."


Rey: budaya pe ni?

Aisha : ish, dak ni masih fresh ke shim?

Hashim :biasalah. Fresh lagi.


Reynolds : Fresh, aku bukan buah lah..


Hashim: Nampak sha? dak ni kelakar, fresh gi...

Aisha: eleh.. masih mentah lagi.


Reynolds: yearight.. kalo aku mentah, I takkan datang sinilah.

Aisha :relek brother, duduk dulu.


Aisha was drinking some wine.


Rey: eh! Islam minum arak?


Aisha: ish, you speak like a ustaz la.

Rey: your health, I dun care.


Then I begin to make friends with her like ordinary people do.


Rey: Datang dari mane?


Aisha: KL.


Rey :O, KL.. So how's life? still studying?


Aisha: Ala.. selalu dengar perkataan "study", ari ni kite enjoy.. ape selalu study study ni..


Rey : ok.. then.. what are you doing now?


Aisha: now? I am gonna go to da dance floor.


Rey: go ahead.


*Like some assclown who tries to show off her skills to menarik laki from all 8 direction. North,South, east, west, south-west, south-east, north-west, north-east.


* meanwhile I asked Hashim.

Rey: ei, siapa dia sebenarnya?


Hashim: la.. baru tau je.

Rey: WTF!!?? baru kenal je? PANTAT Ko.. Baru kenal je dah berpeluk-pelukan?


Hashim: welcome to my life bro.


*after awhile.


Rey: yo, I gtg sha.

Aisha: k see ya some other time.


Rey: Well, I may need ur contact num..


*she tarik my phone..


Aisha: k, here's my num, call me.


Rey: k , ciao.


Aisha: Janji rock k?

Rey: k.


*she kissed me again. and I just went of like dat.



I asked Hashim.


Rey: EI! IS SHE FRENCH AH? WHY ALWAYS KISS PEOPLE's CHEEK 1?

Hashim: Bodoh la.. ko masih fresh la..



I called her that nite.


She was drunk.


Aisha: Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~


Rey: yo sup~ you told me to call you.


Aisha: ooo... ya.. dak fresh tu yer?


Rey: ye, are u feeling ok??

Aisha :stupid .. stupid.


Rey: huh? ei, seriously, you ok or not?



I just hang up..


What an idiot she is.


Aisha.. I would kill her the next time.

madness.

Madness.

I am getting mad.

day by day,

I face the pc..


finding for answers.


What actually am I finding.


Is impossible.


What the fuck is wrong with me?


I am beginning to change.

My ex girlfriend


Jessica screwed me.

she wrote in her letter together with the book she gave me

"Reynolds, you have changed so much. I have the feeling that you are getting lost. To be honest, I sympathize you a lot Reynolds. You were always lonely, I thought we were the same, but now, neither do I understand you anymore."



I felt pain..


very painful indeed.


She knew that I was changing.

into another self.


Initially I thought this was all just an act. An act to be some great philosopher respected by geniuses.

My "act" has ended by becoming an integral part of my nature, I told myself. It's no longer an act. My knowledge that I am masquerading as a normal person has even corroded whatever of normality I originally possessed, ending by making me tell myself over and over again that it too was nothing but a pretense of normality. To say it another way, I'm becoming the sort of person who can't believe in anything except the counterfeit.


I am so sorry.. everyone..

All my life I have been acutely aware of a contradiction in the very nature of my existence.

faham semua.

Akhirnya saya dah faham kesemuanya.

Anybody can come debate with me. I want to learn more

reynolds_too@hotmail.com

(Try and understand this post)

within the within the within (can understand this, I sell my life to u for real.)

I see something is within of something.

So deep.

That I cannot confirm that is something or nothing.


It is something which u cant see through microscopic lens of empirical method.


I want to tell you all. That what I see is within, the within, and the within of the Absolute.


The Absolute here may refer to God, to the Truth to anything.


but it is something.. which all of us have, all of us are here for , all of us should know. but yet we have forgotten.



In this domain. I know by all means. I will be self-actualized.


In this domain, what we can find is a contradiction of life, of everything and nothing.

In this domain, we see nothing but the domain of "within, within and within"


This is no crap of words written by me subjectively.


It is carefully planned and explained.


Tell me.. what is this within, of this Absolute.


This Absolute is what that is existing.



A corollary of Nothing VS something.


I dun know how I could construct such corrollary ..


but I can see..


what is the origin of nothing vs something?


surely everything has its origin.


but what is and what's not?


can we explain in such a manner?


deeper than that of Laocius?


Within the absolute..



That's where EVERYTHING and NOTHING began.


what is it that sparks these intelligence?



I have no idea.


Please consider this.


Read this.


understand this..


If you cant.


I am the only one who will be within, within, within, within.. this absolute.



Absolute. That's where we are in, and everything is in , and nothing is in.



Absolute. Is the absolute.



How does it started?


its through the unique process of the Absolute.



I cannot explain..


But it is.. Everything and nothing.


Why cant we interpret such corollary?

of nothing and something?


am I confused?


I AM not..



Here I am a barbarian for you do not understand me.

Idiocy or intelligence?